Thursday, October 28, 2010

American Boy

Check out my phone:

Simple.  I am not a popular teenager, no one texts me but my coworkers and Scotsman.  It meets my needs.

Scotsman on the other hand bought this last night:

To me it's pretty fancy, it vibrates, has a slider, sounds like fun to me.  As we came out of the store Scotsman had a huge smile on his face, he was happy about his new toy, making me smile.  But then it hit me, this is the first cell phone he's bought in America.  It might not be a big deal to you, it's an everyday thing, but it just makes me think of how far we've come.

A couple of years ago we knew nothing of each other, he was there and I was here.  He never thought he'd find himself so lucky to find this amazing Chilean woman who would cook amazing meals, keep him warm at night, and love the hell out of him.  The same goes for me, I never thought I'd find myself a Scotsman, I like my Irish, but a hot-tempered Scotsman who works hard making beautiful gardens, writing nerdy blogs like me, takes care of my very needy expectations and loves the hell out of me, I never thought I'd get so lucky. 

No matter how insignificant the improvements might be to the outer world, we're slowly but surely building our little lives together.  Had we not given this crazy love a chance we would not be here, happy in love.

Listening to: "Strange Vine" -Delta Spirit. Catchy tune.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sex by popular demand.

Scotsman and I finally got to sleep in today.  The sound of rain outside, all the leaves are falling, and the sky is gray.  Utah this time of year is beautiful and rather romantic.  We totally got it on.  But who cares, that's what people do.

I love laying my side on my husband while I recover, talking, learning more about him and his mysterious ways.  We started talking about our youths.  We were so different from one another.  I grew up very geeky, I had nerdy choir friends, we were probably all virgins and we liked it that way, we were serious Mormons.  Sex was never really a pressure or something you had to do to be cool, probably because we just weren't.  On the other hand, Scotsman grew up in Glasgow, if you weren't having sex as a teenager you weren't cool.  He's a stubborn guy, and he's sure of himself, he says he didn't fall in that trap.  I believe him.

Although I grew up a sheltered little Chilean woman, I learned through the media all around me that only cool people had sex.  It was in all the movies, I listened to a lot of 90's R&B where sexual messages are loud and clear, in my heart I actually wanted to be sexy like that someday and rock my guy's world.  My friends may not have pressured me to do it, but the world around me was.  But I was fat and ugly so I remained a virgin anyway, had no choice there.

Now as a 30 year old woman with a 33 year old husband I lay in bed and thinking about how different things are now when it comes to sex.  Sex for me now is exciting, it's bonding, it's strong, but at the same time it's pretty basic and normal.  I'm not talking about our sex being boring, I am just saying sex is nothing out of this world, people do it, so what?  Our friends and those around  us would not even consider pressuring us to have sex so we could be cool or part of the group.  People could care less about what Scotsman and I do. 

Seems like a lot of blogs out there are so sex-obsessed, I even have fallen part of that.  I do my naughty posts here and there, but I do it mostly out love for my husband and how good he really makes me feel.  I don't really go and take nude pictures of myself and expect praise from my readers.  I am not interested in reading things about how horny women are, is it really a big surprise to men? Apparently.  So you had great sex, I am sure most of us have had that privilege too,  everyone deserves that amount pleasure in their lives.  But my point is, people really make such a big deal of sex, not only when we're young, but even in our over the hill stage, we don't really grow up in that regard.   Although to me sex is phenomenal and one of my favorite things to do, it's also quite normal.  Sex has been around since the beginning of time so what's the big fuss all about?  Please enlighten me. 

Listening to: 'Ramalama' -Roisin Murphy.

Thursday, October 21, 2010


"Young people are always demanding respect instead of trying to earn it.  In my day respect was something to strive for..."  -Major Pettigrew.

Major Pettigrew's Last Stand by Helen Simonson is a great book for many reasons, but this quote has stuck with me since. 

My brother is living with us at the moment to get his shit together, he's young, he was in love, got dumped, and how he's stuck in our tiny third bedroom.  Since he's been with us, nothing much has changed, promises have not been kept, he's still stuck in a computer games world.  Families are not perfect, arguments will brew, feelings will be hurt.  In one of these arguments we asked him to be more helpful around the house, my brother bluntly said he felt 'disrespected' and demanded that we treat him with more respect..

Then this week happened, I have another new assistant working for me, she really sucks, she has no drive and does not take criticism well blaming others for her actions.  I realize she has no previous experience, but has had 2 full weeks of training at another office, enough time to do a fair job.  I have another 2 new girls, they are amazing, hard working, humble and open to constructive criticism, they also have not had any dental experience whatsoever, I've complimented them individually in private because I appreciate their hard work and willingness to learn.  Apparently newest girl is not happy that I have complimented everyone but her, how she found out I've complimented her coworkers and not her I don't know, I hate gossips.  She is venting to other coworkers saying that she doesn't like that she feels she does everything wrong and I don't give her any compliments. Drama.

Like Major Pettigrew, I agree that young people now are always demanding respect, but they don't want to do anything to earn it.  I'm so done with young kids always saying older folks or their superiors in my case (I'm only 30) don't respect them.  It's not the first time I've ran into this sort of behavior.  Now I'm not saying young people are not of any worth and deserve no respect, I'm young myself -everyone deserves respect, but to stand up and demand it to me is very shocking.  I guess I see respect more as a behavior rather than a feeling.  Respect to me is something you actually do. 

Anyway, find this book, I loved it....

Listening to: "Come and get higher" -Matt Nathanson.  Sexy, sexy song.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Chi chi chi le le le!

 That's the Chilean President on the right.  I don't see Obama or any U.S. President embracing someone like this.

The whole Chilean miners thing has got me all excited, pumped, and proud of being Chilean.  We're not all that, our country is small and not rich, but when it comes to unity and being humane we are so there.  I was so impressed by the rescuers, the family, the freakin' world coverage!  President Sebastian Pineda was also sweet, I love him, I love Chileans like him, like my grandpa.  I cried a couple of times at work, I had the live coverage playing on the background and whenever I heard the siren I would stop and watch the reunion.  I was trying to get my coworkers to do it with me, major fail, they didn't give a damn.

Anyway, Halloween is coming up and Scotsman and I are trying to figure out what we want to be for Halloween.  I thought it would be funny to dress up like Chilean miners.  I was looking online for hard hats and Chilean flags when I ran into this story.  It really got me thinking.

When I was a kid I was obsessed with the world, I loved flags, I had a map of the world with each country's flag on it.  I would spend hours looking at it and memorizing things about each country hoping to travel someday.  In public Chilean schools we learned all this, Chile is very interested in the world.  Then at 13 years of age I moved to the US and it changed a bit.  I was no longer studying much about the world, I was learning a lot about American History and politics, it was weird.

American education is decent, you learn the basics, but I wish it was a bit different in that it would teach people about the world more.  Sure the Texas flag is very similar to the Chilean flag, I can understand that mistake.  But Chile is not part of Mexico, and no, we don't eat chili peppers in Chile our food is quite mild, and no it's not chilly in Chile. 

I hope my children get the education they need about the world, but I think that's just going to have to come from our home, we're diverse enough.

Listening to: "Son Al Rey" -Juan Luis Guerra.  Love, like loooooove the man.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Antelope Island, Utah

We've been so tired lately, seems like we have no time for us anymore.  Sunday we were supposed to go to a futbol game, but we declined, and it was worth it.  Antelope Island is beautiful, it's almost unreal, but it's only about 40 minutes from our home.

Listening to: "Goddamn right it's a beautiful day" -The Eels.  I think iTunes knows what I blog about.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Tag, You're Freakin' It

I'm an outcast, usually the last girl to get picked in the team, probably due to my sassy nature.  Apparently my younger employees think I'm scary.  At first I was hurt, but I got over it in about 2 minutes, laughed about it later at the realization that life is a lot scarier than Some Chilean Woman.  Wusses.  My bark is much worse than my bite.

When the sweet Siobhan from Time Has Told Me tagged me I was like woot woot, at least someone likes me. Check out her blog, she's a one of those bloggers I enjoy following because she writes from her real life experiences, fears and weaknesses included, I dig that.  I can't stand all these my-life-is-so-perfect blogs, that's just doughnut holes to me, yummy but never enough to satisfy.

So here are the questions Miss Siobahn asked:

1. What do you think is your greatest achievement? 
This might sound deep coming from me, but I feel that after all the crap I've been through in my short 30 years of existence I've actually turned out to be quite a confident, strong woman who likes herself most days. I get me now, that feels good.

2. What song has the best memories for you?
Love Lockdown -Kanye West.  This song woke my then boyfriend now husband up every morning when we first got to be together.  I'd wake up to this song with his hard cock against my butt ready to play.  The best 2 weeks of my life. Whenever I hear that song I blush.

3. If you could be anywhere else right now where would you be?
In San Francisco, I hate emoticons but this really needs a :(

4. What is your favourite book and why?
That's a hard one!  I think right now West Coast by Kate Muir might be my favorite.  You always think you know what you want out of life, but what you actually need is completely not what you originally planned for.  Life is funny that way.

5. What is one thing that makes you really, really happy? 
Sex.  I won't lie.  It makes me feel loved and completely free of any care.  And I'm not talking pervy kinky stuff (which I like too), but the kind that just happens between those that really love each other.

6. What is your favorite item of clothing and why?

I love my shoes.  I have a huge basket, but those are just my summer shoes, my fall and winter shoes are coming.  Heels make me feel leaner and sexier, which is nice because I am a very short, un-sexy, stout woman. 

7. What is your favourite past time? 
I love watching Project Runway, I wish it was on every day.  I live vicariously through those designers, I wish I had good taste and talent to sew and make beautiful fashion.

Now I'm not about to tag, if you want to play the game, just do a post on your blog and let me know if you answered these questions by leaving me a message, I'll be sure to visit.

1.  What is the earliest memory you have?  I still remember my very first birthday party, that I had a crush on a boy and that he gave me a musical bear that played 'It's A Small World After All'.

2.  If you could indulge in one thing for one whole day, what would it be?  Right now I would love some sleep, in the dark, next to my husband here in the mountains.

3.  What is your biggest fear?  I am afraid of being morbidly obese again.  I don't ever write about it here because I am ashamed.

4.  If you had a million dollars?  I'd introduce myself and my family to travel. 

5.  What is your favorite movie?  Nacho Libre no doubt, I have seen it over 20 times and I am still not sick of it.

6.  Is there anyone out there you wouldn't mind punching in the face?  There is a certain blogger, I can't stand her, but I read her crap just because I'm curious once a year.  How can someone so crap get so many followers, I just don't get it.  I'm such a hater.

7.  Do you have something you must learn to do in your lifetime?  I want to learn to play the guitar.

Enough, I'm done.  That took me for like freakin' ever!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Life is crap sometimes.  I thought I was over it, but I'm not.  We're not going to San Francisco because the car is dying and we need to spend our trip money on fixing it.
I ran into the prettiest little blog today and it just added more salt to my open wound.  But wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to rent this space for only $35?  You can actually do that!

Listening to: "Test Transmission" -Kasabian.  Nice, car-related song.  

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Finished Product

The table and chairs are done!  Complete makeover. DIY projects are a pain in the ass, I won't lie, but the end product has brought a lot of extra life into our little dining room. 

Pretty nice, eh?  Did you notice it only has 5 chairs?  That's what happens when you buy second hand.

Listening to: "New Amsterdam" -Travis.