Peru and Chile were magical. El flaco and I had a beautiful time, we went right back to who we are when we are together and spending quality time together and it was a time I will never forget. He makes me laugh out loud, he feeds me Pringles with his mouth, he plays with the most jiggly parts of my body, he looks confused as hell trying to understand Spanish yet still finds a way to laugh at people's jokes. I never stopped loving him and don't plan on ever doing so.
'you never know, you might just find someone new'
Ever since I got back from our trip, went back to our normal lives people that are 'concerned' ask me this question and it breaks my heart. My mother took it a little further and said, 'he's over there, you never know, he might meet someone else'.
Why do people feel the need to say this to someone who's been through a break-up or is in a long distance relationship? Are we so numb to love that we feel we need to just put a band-aid on the wound without truly letting it heal?
What is so difficult for me to make people understand is that everyone's relationship is different, not all relationships are the same. One cannot compare their relationship to another, what benefits me and makes me happy is not what might make others happy.
This relationship has given me more of an appreciation for love, it's shown me that I can care for someone other than myself. Time and sacrifice. Distance and reflection. These are all the things that I now know so painfully well and you know what? As I told him, I rather have this than nothing at all.
Call me crazy.
You don't pay my fucking bills.